That's it!! I hate it, but learned to live with it. There is relief in medication. I would have been dead long ago if not for them. I'm 59.. have been treated since I was 18!! I know the feeling..I try to tell people it's like this black nebulous cloud that comes up behind you-wraps it's arms around you and it has it's way with you! Very subtle and deadly. Most people don't understand! Please talk with me if you'd like-I don't mind. There are a lot of us on this site..know a few. they are marvelous, intelligent people.